There was a girl. Her name was Anna. She was a nice, warm person. Having a nice family, great children, good friends, fabulous job, success and recognition. You know… international background, languages, traveling, living in different places, having choices, freedom and flexibility. Having “achieved” so fast so much. Of course, it was a result of a hard work. Work hard, play hard. Who cares? Success is really what matters. Succeeding it everything she does. And still. Something was missing. Something untouchable. She had a sense of it, but each time she wanted to touch it, it flew away. Like a magic fire bird from the book of her childhood, full of colors, full of magic, glowing, calling and promising and flying away.
Anna, being an efficient and structured person – well-trained consultant – decided to go after it and see what is there. By, of course, thinking of the next step in her professional growth. What else? She had a good friend who ran a successful coaching business after spending many years in the consulting world. Anna called her friend to ask for advice. What could be next? Her friend surprisingly didn’t give her an answer and also didn’t suggest doing some brainstorming or SWOT analysis or at least a market research, but instead offered her a coaching. Coaching??? Is that a thing for those who don’t know what to do with their life and ask for help? Nothing for Anna. Her friend insisted: Give it a try. What could happen? Anna didn’t really believe in those things, but she was a curious girl. So she decided to see what this thing was about. Six weeks later, on January 1st, Anna was signing up for Co-Active Coaching Program. Not really knowing why she decided to do it, but sensing that there could be something to explore. Something new. And different. Totally different and somehow not unknown. Something forgotten.
Four weeks later Anna started a course. She failed fabulously in a “sandbox” on a romantic topic, working hard trying to find a solution – the perfect woman – for the guy in the client chair. She got stuck. Failed. And failed again. She didn’t want to fail. She wanted to be successful and kind by helping others. So if it was not about finding a solution, well – let’s learn another technique.
She started to do some coaching, just playing with it. It was fun. Between Fulfillment and Balance courses there was some sparkling feeling, waiting of something big to happen. And then it happened. A big “Aha”. And then “Oh, no!” and then “NO-NO-NO”… “Really”? And then a freeze. One month of emptiness, loneliness, the decision to be radical true to self and people next to her. Not able to feel, confusion, then pain, then feeling nothing again. Something happened in her life. Something in her core was touched. Something wanted to get visible, to get out of cage. Was it a firebird? The door got opened. Not too much, just a little bit, but enough to see that something was there. Not possible to close it again.
Then the process. The decision to give it a try. Just for few days. Another place. Another people. Deep dive. Truth. Pain. Fail. Giving up. Still breathing. Still there. Is it not gone? Are there another perspectives to look from? Not really. But if you mean…
Another fishing got success just few weeks later. Another deep dive. Deeper than ever before. Deeper than ever possible. How much pain is there out in the world? How much love? Where do we belong to? How is it to be loved? What are you scared of? What are you longing for?
The awareness of self. The acceptance. Creation of space. The awareness of world, of its elements. Sensing them. Being a part of them. Realizing why is she here. What her role is. Learning how to be. How to be with. How to be strong and weak. How strong the weakness is. This is what makes her human. What makes her be loveable and trustful. What make her whole.
2020, January 1st. Many coaching sessions, trainings and courses later, Anna is still learning and failing, because it is beautiful to fail and to grow. It is what makes us alive. It is what brings people together. She shares her experience with her children (who are the masters of fail and growth anyway), with her loved ones. She is an international coach, teaching all kind of clients how to fail. How to to open up and to trust. How to be vulnerable and still strong, be ready to raise and to fly any moment. Do you see the firebird?
And there is one more secret I want to share with you. The reason why this story has a happy end are you. All of you in my life. And all of you who is not here at this moment. You gave me a permission to be myself, challenged me and told me the truth, championed and expanded me. You have me your trust and your love. Thank you from my whole heart. And …what is next for us?